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Searching for Trust

I’ve been pondering the concept of trust alot lately. I want to trust. I think we all do. So I have been searching. It is an illusive thing and when I look at where I can place my trust – truly – the list of possibilities gives me pause.

Can I trust my emotions – nope, those are fickle, fleeting things. Can I trust my memories – I find more and more that I cannot because memory is only snippets of experiences seen through my lens from my angle, which is not the whole story. Can I trust the words and actions of others – sometimes, but people are imperfect and influenced by many things. Can I trust my thoughts – not really because my mind is limited and as the saying goes – it is our prerogative to change our mind. Can I trust what I hear, read, and see – well, that can be a fool’s journey for we do not know and rarely can verify what is an illusion, half-truth, down right lie, or incomplete accounting. Can I trust my faith – I hope so, but that is really a question of can I trust myself for faith is based on what I have learned thus far. Faith can be tested. Faith can be misguided. Faith isn’t about what I “know”, it’s about what I “believe”. As I look back over my journey of faith I find that every time I expand my awareness or deepen my faith – what I believed to be true before was only partial knowing.

heart-power-1I search and seek the answer. At the end of my mental listing I find there is only one thing that I can trust – and that is God (Source, Oneness or whatever word you choose). God, having created me in his (or her) image is the essence of all that is good in me. God isn’t an entity I “believe” in. God is my source, who I know in the very core of my soul. God gives love, speaks love and never wavers in that position. Many teach that we should fear the wrath and judgment of God, but it is my only experience that God is gentle and kind. God does does not judge as humans do but rather based on who he is, not who I am. And God is unfailing, unconditional love. Unconditional meaning there is no condition under which he does not love me, accept me, forgive me. God NEVER rejects me. God is the one place where my trust has never come back unanswered. God is not ever the source of my pain – life and the free will of myself or others may be. But God is where my rest, my comfort, my completion can be found. This is what I can trust.

Be blessed, dear friends, as you go on your quest of life and discover your source of trust.


A lesson in trust

Today I learned a lesson in trust. Not because someone broke my trust but because they didn’t. Sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in my fears. When I look at new situations with the suspicions of the past I have done a disservice to both myself and the person I’m dealing with. They can neither know our pains nor anticipate our buttons.

And what I learned today is that while holding onto my own fear and my own self preservation I didn’t see theirs. I didn’t recognize the signs of their pain. I didn’t  know they had the same lesson in their life. Patience, compassion, and the willingness to take a risk allowed us both to share and see the other side. It wasn’t  easy but it was worth it. And I was able to move from fear to freedom. As the Bible says, “the truth shall set you free.”

I have come a long way in learning lessons from my past. So I choose to acknowledge that and pick up with a new possibility. I choose to look at the future as bright, not as bleak. I choose to leave the person who hurt me behind in exchange for a new slate with someone else. I’m glad I had the lesson today. I’m glad I spoke out and I’m glad I pushed myself to be open. In the end, the lesson I learned in the past has opened me up to the sweetness of trust in my today.

Be open. Be trusting. And be blessed!


Have you ever noticed how tightly the timing in life seems to be? I can’t tell you the number of times that a second, minute, hour, or day made all the difference. It reminds me of a phrase I often hear at work: “Just in time, just enough.” I think that the universe works inside that philosophy as well.

Whether we are in a pessimistic or optimistic frame of mind changes how we see this phenomenon of life. If we are experiencing life as a crisis, then we scramble desperately for the last-minute rescue. If we are in a place of calm and confidence (aka peace and faith) then we see it as the Divine timing in life. We can learn to count on it. I’ve written about that before in 11:59 God.

Where are you in the spectrum? Are you going with the flow? Are you accessing the perfect timing and relying upon it’s recurrence? Are  you panicking and grasping at every straw to try to force what you need? When we resist and struggle we actually find ourselves tangled in the web of panic.

For just a couple of moments focus on the breath of life within you. Remember the times, over and over again, that things worked out in the most perfect precision. All the panic and worry came to nothing. Do it differently this time. Deliberately, with gusto and positive belief, speak your intention. And then let it go.

Once you set the intention, let God work out the timing. You can and should then focus on what your hands, heart, mind and body can do for someone else. Be their angel or helpful agent. I know, I know – it’s sounds to easy. I assure you – it isn’t EASY. But it does work. Just this once, trust. It will prove itself to be the best thing  you can do.

Trust and be blessed.

Finding the extraordinary in the ordinary

On my way from home to work each day I pass through several school crossing zones. On most days, other than the reducing of speed, I don’t really notice too much. It’s part of the routine and like most things, becomes part of the background of life. Today, however, for some reason, my mind and focus were caught by a brief exchange on the street.

There was a really little guy, maybe 6 years old, who was heavy laden with this backpack. His walking route included crossing the street at the base of a pretty steep hill across 6 lanes of traffic. I was the front car in my lane at the red light of this intersection and he caught my attention. From my mother’s heart I looked at him with a bit of worry because he was so small and all alone. When he came to the cross walk he looked up at the traffic with wide eyes as there were several big cars, some of which didn’t look like they were preparing to stop, but they did. I could visibly see him mustering up his courage as this was probably the hardest few yards of his entire walk. He was approached by a school crossing guard and with wide and trusting eyes he nodded. With that he reached his tiny hand up to meet the hand of the older gentleman who was to be his sentry and guard across the street. There, in an ordinary moment I saw the utter trust and courage of that little boy. I saw a tender exchange between the two as they, side-by-side and hand-in-hand, started their walk together.

And, then I watched the crossing guard. He knew exactly how precious his ward was and he deliberately, with confidence and authority, caught the eye of each and every driver before he crossed in front of their car. He took his job of protection very seriously and he was not going to let chance or distraction deter him from safely depositing this little boy across 6 lanes of traffic.

Yes, it was an ordinary sight on any ordinary Tuesday. But in that moment I was fully aware of the connection we have to each other as humans – strangers or not, as we carry on our day. We hold life in our hands and we often do not think to notice. Of course, the little boy was safely back on his trek to school in but a moment. The crossing guard kept his watchful eye on the little boy, even beyond his post. I was thankful in that moment for the dedication of this man. Clearly he was in the age of retirement and he could have chosen to sleep in these mornings. But instead, he cared about his community and he cared for “his” kids – enough to be a momentary guardian. What a precious extraordinary, very ordinary moment.

What ordinary moments have you noticed in an extraordinary way today? Be blessed!


Today I had a conversation with a friend about “interdependency”.

You hear alot about co-dependency which really is an ineffective, disempowering way for us to go about life.  But interdependency is so much different.

Interdependency is about trust, accountability, and support.  When we are interdependent we must trust that the other person will keep their commitments and do their part of the equation.  We must hold ourselves and each other accountable for our areas of expertise and our promises to bring that to the task at hand.  And lastly we must agree to be a support to each other when it’s time for an “all hands on deck” call for help.  It is powerful and empowering to know that we can build upon each others’ strength to fulfill the need at hand.  That is interdependency.  That’s how relationships, friendships, marriages, families, communities and companies actually work in a healthy and forward-moving fashion.

Does this line up with your truth?  Are you living in a co-dependent or interdependent fashion?